My Coffin to Bare

This is my coffin...my duty.
My anguish shed. 
This are my interests and my time and my emotions spred.
You have no clue what to do with me
It's visbly impossible not to notice your confusion
You do not know what to do.
Surrounding by all these little frantic girls
yellling and shrilling about what to do in this world.
This is my coffin to bare
you have no idea
what to do with me
with my pain
with my anguish
with my life.
with my coffin
Because this is my coffin to bare.

Craziness is Heaven

I was looking for a title to describe the emotion that I am feeling right now. And as I was browsing pictures online to describe my mood, I ran across this poster that said Craziness is Heaven. And wha-la! The title and emotion for my next post existed. It was a feeling of amazement that it was only three words that made me feel...whole again. 

The existence of this blog is refreshing because I am tired of being conscious of the words that come out of my mouth. I am tired of caring about how other people think...and how THEY feel.  I want to be selfish. And I will express my disdain and disgust in a healthy way on THIS blog. I saw a blogger who wrote that she wishes to remain small. That was startling because isn't the point of blogging to be heard...what's the point of existing?

I am in love with the idea of love and that's pretty crazy. Poetry to reinvent myself...in a dark way while still remaining friendly and honest. My sexuality bothers people. I know it does. Why does it matter to me that other people are bothered by who I am? I don't know. It does though. But I am starting not to care. I am starting to remain...in-genuine to myself if I continue to care. Craziness if truly heaven...FOR ME!

The Beginning

Its a fresh start from the ending
It's a new play of words
where the incorrect here will be the correct
The rules of the game will be different
and suffocating to some
The Beginning of something fresh where
denials of the heterogenous of it all will be accepted
Its to push the standards of the accepted
No more sugar coating
No more second guessing
This is who I am
Politically and Insufficiently In-Correct